A New Year is upon us yet again and with it, come the resolutions to make this the year that we will Do It. We each have our own “It”. They may include such things as loosing weight, developing exercise routines, healthy eating, facing an addiction, clearing cluttered closets and the list goes on.
There is something inspiring about tackling a bad habit or pattern at the start of the year; at least for a while. Unfortunately, many of us end up a week or two into the year feeling, well, defeated. Why do we continually build our expectations only to find reasons why maybe this isn’t really the best time to follow through? Well, consciously we may say we want to tackle our demons, yet there can be deeper reasons, unconscious reasons, why these habits etc… need to hold on. It has been my experience that each of the self-sabotaging habits and patterns actually served a valuable purpose at some point in our lives. Things like compulsive eating and smoking may have at some point given us comfort and acceptance when there was none to be found elsewhere. These became copping strategies that helped us to survive another day. But that day was likely long ago.
Facing the New Year, determined to emerge victorious over our habits, may require that we acknowledge the service the habit provided us and assert that, while it was once necessary, it is no longer needed. Instead of waging a war against ourselves and our habits, perhaps this could be the year that we experience gratitude to ourselves for making it this far, warts and all, and make peace with the inner voice that holds the habits in place.
Have you ever noticed the little voice that says things like, “Oh its okay, just have one, it won’t matter”? That is the voice that will sabotage your best efforts. By listening for it, becoming aware of its tactics (they are tricky) and realizing that this voice is not you, you are in a position to make an empowered choice. Make peace with the voice; thank it for trying to assist you. Remember: this voice was born at the time when this habit helped you cope. Inform it that while the strategy it recommends was once helpful, that is no longer the case. This type of approach can elevate our self-esteem and self-confidence and allow us to make positive, supportive choices for our lives.
Wishing you well in a New Year of personal mastery!
SusanIt is that time of year again. The Holidays. So much to do, so many things stressing us out. It is a facinating time. Each year holds new promise to reach out to family, friends and those in need. It is a given to many people that the Holidays are a stressful time - seeing family with whom you may have unresolved issues, the financial strain of overspending and the expectations - can be simply overwhelming. We often try to create the ideal version of the holidays for ourselves and our family and end up creating more stress in pursuit of an unattainable vision. Ultimately, a sense of letdown or disappointment can result, which too often may be expressed as frustration or anger.
I have reflected on the Holidays from my youth, and observed how they have painted the expectations I carried into the Holidays of my adult life. As a child I enjoyed getting together with family, yet there was often a disharmonious energy that arrived with us at my Grandmothers house. I could sense the tension between the adults but didn't understand it. Often, as the tension built it would be time for the presents. As if somehow the presents would bring the harmony I longed for; I would be excited and have high expectations that this year I would get something really great. I could ignore the tensions for this little while, but no present could ever bring what I longed for. The disappointment I felt wasn't really about not getting the great gift, it was about not sharing the harmony and joy that my heart was missing. Of course, I didn't understand that, until many years later.
When I look at Christmases in my early adult life I realize I was driven to "get and give" it all. Surely then I would be satisfied. Well, guess how that worked out! Not. So now, many years later, I realize that for me the stress of the holidays came from this longing in my heart to truly connect to myself and to others. I expressed that by shopping for all the perfect things to give to those I loved; as if the gift would hold the space for my heart to connect to theirs. Of course the void persisted. It was only in allowing myself to really step into the feelings of disappointment that I was able to realize that the only person responsible for my joyfulness during the Holidays (or at any time) was me. No gift was going to declare me "Loved", nor "Worthy", nor "Good Enough". No gift would transform my family into the "Harmonious Unit" I wanted it to be. Gaining the understanding of how I had tried to compensate for the Christmases of my youth opened the gateway to connect to the feelings of my child-self. All she really wanted was to experience love and peace and joy - the very things we are told the season is about. The best part is, now that I know that - it is possible to create it!
Now, I focus on staying in touch with my heart and allow myself to be true to it. I have learned that I am enough. I am able to experience love, joy and peace within myself and share them with others.
I share these perspectives with you in the hopes that if you are stressed, frustrated or disappointed during this season that these words may open a window for you to reflect on the true source of your feelings.
As we each take responsibility for our feelings we learn to stop blaming others for how we feel - and this certainly brings Joy to the World!
May you share many heart-felt moments with yourself and those you love this holiday season,
With Love,
Susan
